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PLEASE STOP ABORTION !!!!!

2010-03-01T14:23:00.000-08:00

Dear Mommy,
I am in Heaven now, sitting on Jesus' lap.
He loves me and cries with me; for my heart has been broken.
I so wanted to be your little girl. I don't quite understand what has happened.
I was so excited when I began realizing my existence.
I was in a dark, yet comfortable place. I saw I had fingers and toes.
I was pretty far along in my developing, yet not near ready to leave my surroundings.
I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping.
Even from my earliest days, I felt a special bonding between you and me.
Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you. Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry.
I heard Daddy yelling back.
I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon.
I wondered why you cried so much. One day you cried almost all of the day.
I hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were so unhappy.
That same day, the most horrible thing happened.
A very mean monster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in.
I was so scared, I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me.
Maybe you never heard me.
The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and screaming,
"Mommy, Mommy, help me please; Mommy, help me."
Complete terror is all I felt.
I screamed and screamed until I thought I couldn't anymore.
Then the monster started ripping my arms off.
It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain.
It didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop.
I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off.
Though I was in such complete pain, I was dying.
I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you love me.
I wanted to make all your tears go away.
I had so many plans to make you happy.
Now I couldn't; all my dreams were shattered.
Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all.
I wanted more than anything to be your daughter.
No use now, for I was dying a painful death.
I could only imagine the terrible things that they had done to you.
I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone, but I didn't know the words you could understand.
And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead.
I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a huge angel into a big beautiful place.
I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone.
The angel took me to Jesus and set me on His lap.
He said He loved me, and He was my Father. Then I was happy. I asked Him what the thing was that killed me. He answered, "Abortion.
I am sorry, my child; for I know how it feels."
I don't know what abortion is;
I guess that's the name of the monster.
I'm writing to say that I love you and to tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl.
I tried very hard to live.
I wanted to live. I had the will, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful.
It sucked my arms and legs off and finally got all of me. It was impossible to live.
I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you.
I didn't want to die.
Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion monster.
Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to go through the kind of pain I did.
Please be careful.
Love,

Your Baby Girl

PLEASE STOP ABORTION !!!!!

i hate you

2010-01-15T13:49:00.000-08:00

i hate you!! i hate you!! i really hate you..!! i HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i just want to get you out of my head right now... i dont wan to think anything that is related to you... could you get out from my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate you !!!! i want to get back my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~M.A.D~

2010-01-02T12:49:00.000-08:00

welcoming year 2010

2010-01-01T05:38:00.000-08:00

Goodbye 2009 and welcome 2010 !!!

Like what everyone has said , put behind those bitter memories and start a brand new year... I'm glad that my friends was there for me..the very last hour of 2009, i spent my timing pouring out all my feelings and started off a new year with a smile..

THANKS DUMDUM =]

IM just glad to have such great friends around me.. they did so much.. till the end of my life i wouldn't know how to repay them back... i thank God for all that he has given to me... i will cherish every moment i have with them now till forever ..

~MAPLE LOVES ALL OF YOU~

thanks harsheni....

and also there is a video that Dinah did for all of us.. it was so touching.. thanks dee.. << watch it in my fb ,cause cant seems to upload it here >>

~HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS.. I HOPE YOUR NEW YEAR HAD ALSO BEEN A GREAT ONE.. TAKE CARE ~

~Christmas~

2009-12-25T06:28:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas everyone.. i bet everyone had a great xmas!!!!
sadly my Christmas was so dull here Moscow..
what i did for xmas??? went to class came back and sleep almost the whole day.. how pathetic is that... nothing is special anymore.. not even Christmas.... i did went for a "family dinner" with my bible study members.. but something is missing still..

i guess its "FAMILY" !!!! I WANT TO GO HOME.. I'M TIRED OF BEING ALONE HERE WITHOUT MUM DAD AND SISTERS....

i hate this part right here!!!!!!!!!!!!

~santa coat made out of winter jacket and cotton balls~

~ getting ready ~

~pastor kevin from aussie~

~ 1st christmas present ~

~that how we celebrated xmas ,with glass shots~

Unforgetable Event

2009-12-15T12:22:00.000-08:00

Well today was a "BIG" day for 3-15 girls.. we gotta meet the Dean ... usually when we meet him , all five of us will put up a smiley n angelic face.. but unfortunately today we barely able to do it cause we were in deep( i mean deep ^100) shit..!!!

Well lets rewind things so that you all will understand whats going on..

Remember few days ago we were celebrating Dinah's birthday??? well One of the neighbor complained to the guard that we were making too much noise..

What noise??? singing Birthday song it seems... what nonsense...!!! its a birthday man of course we will sing bdae song.. cause of that "noise" she wrote a letter , stating our names, what time , where and what were we doing and handed it to the commander.

and since we were "Racuss students " it make things worst... the commander hated us so much( i guess ), the complain when straight to the director...

It was really scary knowing that the director went and talked to the Dean about us.. i definitely freaked out cause they took my porpusk ( a card to get u into the hostel).. ** rt pv hc n dd's also were confiscated ** .. without it i cant go anywhere...but i did anyways, cause got class ma >.< so every time sneak in.. hahaa

so we were all geared up for the meeting.. the dean was expecting us.. his facial expression was so scary today.. normally he is with his big smiley face. but this time he looked fierce!!!! scarily fierce.... he warned us!!!!!! gave us some lectures...and ask us to write a "statement" .. stating what all we did during the party ... there was a point where he said he would write and official letter to our parents... that really shocked me like crazy !!!

after writing statements, he asked us to wait outside the office.. waiting really make me nervous...I DONT LIKE WAITING!!!
they took about half an hour in the room...
we were all outside wondering whats going on???

* kick us out from the hostel
* informing to all our lecturer what we did
* deport us back to Malaysia
* ???

There were so many questions in our heads... 30 mins seems to be like forever..
when they out they ask us to sign the statement ( btw they took so long because they translated the statement we wrote ) =p

Dean gave us one last chance.. if they were to have other complain about 3-15 girls, we are definitely dead meat..cause
1st he will kick us out of the hostel
2nd inform our parents
n 3rd sent back to "home sweet home"

haiz haiz....never in my shcooling life i been in the principle's office.. and now i experienced it.. it one hell of an "excitement".....

writing our statements

** ps: the neighbor i was mentioning just now, dislikes us so much...
whenever we talk in the room ,she will start banging on the wall asking us to lower down... we are not allowed to laugh at night either cause its "aka's" sleeping time.. she wants a world that is silence.. no music no entertainment no laughing no talking no jokes... no nothing!!!
but one thing she allows is , her bf can have all the party in the world, making so much noise and no one can say anything about it.. **

Just wish she didn't moved into that room..
"you should have just stay in dom 35.. why did u even shift here next to us"..
last year it was all fine when she wasn't in the picture.. none of our next door neighbors complaint anything about us.. but when she arrived, that's when the nightmare started... i hate this part right here.... ahgghhhggrhhhh!!!!!!!!!

more pictures

2009-12-14T09:23:00.000-08:00

~check her out~

~family potrait~

~ aki and jonny aka happy couple ~

~then suddenly jonny said something wrong, aki gave him the "what??" look~

~Jonny tired to explain ~

thats all for Dee's birthdaY =]

PEACE_______________________________________ =]

birthdays!!!!!!!

2009-12-13T09:27:00.000-08:00

WOW.. tis week was full of parties... two birthday's back to back.. first was Dee's den Baha aka pandi balshoi... heheh.. never in my mind i thought medical students could party like this..giler betul..!!

This whole week i never touch a single page of my notez.. how great is that..!!! Finals are coming but all of us were partying.. i guess we human will never study till the last minute.. haiz..
But neways i had lots of fun .. HAHAHA..

~ DEE BIRTHDAY ~

theme : pump it up ( 60's 70's )
venue : 3-15
time : 11am till the next day 8am
menu : potato, mix vege , mutton , chicken chips n dips...
highlight of the day : "jello shots"

activities : speling Bee ??? << dunno who thought that >>
karaokae =]
dance floor !!!

conclusion : all of us were dead tired after the party...

~jello shots~

~me and baha~

~ thivash~

~pavitra darling~

~ vithia aka~

~"gandiburn"~

Then the very next day, we had futsal game...

*Galatikus vs Titanites
*Streets vs Queen of Spartans

and guess what.. even though we were so tired after the party, both of our teams ( galatikus and steets ) played well in the match..
we had a great game.. was so happy cuz it was my team's 1st goal man.. wow.. Thanks to my fellow teammates Felicia .. she scored it.. we finally made our coach proud !!!
JIMMY WE BROKE THE EGG MAN !!!!!!!!!!! we won the match.. HUHUHU =]

with the excitement after the futsal match, we headed straight back to the hostel .. no time to waste we quickly get dressed for the next party..

~BAHA"S BIRTHDAY~

theme : freestyle
venue : 6-10
time :11pm till 6am
menu : honey chicken , spicy chicken , chicken paretal, vege ,chips
drinks : cola n ???

what we did in the party ???

dance all night long .. AGAIN...!!!

we are mad doctors.. hahaa... never imagine a life as a medical student like this.. do you???

november 2009

2009-12-10T07:31:00.000-08:00

Hey guys !! i know , i've been missing for another month once again.. Maple is not that buzy till she cant blog >.< Just that the net was down...

I dont know whether you guys realised it, Time really flies.. its December already.. This means finals are coming.. ahhgghhrrrggghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! Thinking about it scares me to death... ANATOMY AND HISTOLOGY is going to hunt me for a month!!!

so much FUN for the pass few months and now its time to study man..
Here's what Maple been up to for the past few months
HEHEHE =P

1) Orientation for new students
2) RSMU Futsal League
3) Deepavali in Moscow
4) Friendship Day
5) Halloween Party
6) Interbatch
7) Hema's 21st birtday
8) Dee's 19th birthday

keep on forgetting to forget about you

2009-12-08T13:15:00.000-08:00

pimp my rommie

2009-11-04T12:31:00.000-08:00

Well since maple's life is so unpredictable..some things are going well.. some are just getting bad to worst.. but today i decided not to emo..if not i might ended up like emo queen aka u knw who.. Lolxx =p going to share something new with you all.. haven't see my room yet right???

so here is it...a glimpse of my crib in Moscow, Russia... see the before and after..

the smallest toilet ever... and after seeing it u dont feel like going rite?

looks like a zero star hotel or motel's bathroom.. would u dip yourself in there?

thats where i sleep.. my hard rock springy and pokey bed!!

Well like what the title said... we did some makeover..itS better now ..and it feels like home =]

mY study table =]

dee's study table

double-decker.. its so comfy.. go get it in ikea
GUESS WHICH IS MY BED??

cleaner toilet.. sparkle sparkle **

**bathroom got pimp too**

~collectioinss~

hmmm... well what u guys think?? almost all the stuffs in the room we got them from IKEA..its the best place to shop for furnitures and decos.. ehhee... and its freaking cheap here... hahaha... << mummy dont get jealous >>.. hehehe...

and guess whats the favorite thing in the room ????

A PHOTO MADE BY BBFs OF MINE

I MISS YOU GUYS LIKE HECK !!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YA'LL!!!!!

too much for a day

2009-11-03T16:38:00.000-08:00

Today was such a hectic day.. Morning till night.. i seems to stop thinking about things..

Early in the morning i had my Russian lecturer yelling and shouting in the class.. i just don't understand why she couldn't see that we are trying so hard to cope with this language..its not easy to pick up a language man.. instead of looking at our effort that we put in, she rather push us down saying things that hurt us and at time threatens to send us back to year 1..."people from the moon or galaxy"- i just dislike it when she says it.. <>

Then after Russian , had lecture for microbiology.. was really excited copying notes during the lecture. but then Mr cough must come and pay me a visit at that very moment.. i was so embarrassed .. coughing so loud in the auditorium... thank God Dee was there to help me out.. bought water and then it was all good...

well my day didn't just ended that way.. two big bombs it me to day...

Firstly, a visit from an old friend... was so surprise !!!!! i mean till now i still cant believe it actually happened.. it felt so good to have my friend around.. i felt like home again.. like family reunite again..

<< THANKS FOR BRINGING "HOME & FAMILY " BACK TO ME OLD FRIEND >>

secondly , i lost a friend... a friendship that i just mend it back...a friendship that i thought will last.. or at least more than a week.. it hurts so badly cause it means so much to me.. i tried so hard for us to be friend once again, but....
Maybe some things are not mend to be..i just want things to work out...

do u still remember how u felt for the 1st day of kindergarden??
~ i wish i could feel that again now ~

winter is here...

2009-11-01T01:45:00.000-07:00

hmmmm.. winter is so early this year... like extra early compared to last year.. so as usually i wasn't geared up for winter.. went out with sweater and sneakers... luckily i didn't slip and fall.. "nike shoes has good grib" HAHAHA =]
it was snowing out there.. freezing cold.. with no snow cap , gloves , ear muffles ,scarf.... what's the result of it ??

Getting a very bad flu and coughing all the way ..i don't like this.. cause whenever i cough my throat hurts like crazy.. and the icithy feeling down the throat its irritating.. feel like cutting my thoart and start scarcthing it..!!!

Happy Halloween

2009-10-31T15:36:00.000-07:00

huhu!!! Its Halloween baby...
Was suppose to have a Halloween party with my block mates.. but ended up sleeping.. hahaa.. i guess we will never stick to our plan..

But anyways, have i ever tell you i've join a futsal team..so now most of my Fridays will be at the zal training myself... Futsal was never in my list as a sport that i will be in, but i guess people do change... i find futsal quite fun and most important challenging !!! just want thank a person who actually make me get interested in football/ futsal.

~THANK YOU ANONYMOUS ~

well currently we are having leagues for futsal..so this week was our 2nd league..
we played against SEKUK (most of them are in uni team ) .. the score ????
6-0 ........... ( dun laugh) well they are really good... but we "galatikus" wont give up... we did improved compared to our 1st game >.<

highlight of the game : maple did some ballet move and got knock down straight to the ground.. << OUCH !! >>

** GOOD GAME PEOPLE **

3 months already... >.<

stressnya!!!

2009-10-29T11:58:00.001-07:00

stresss... stresss... stress.... ahgghhrrrgghh!!!!!!!!!!!!

Every single day is exam day...controlsss... colloqsss... gosh.. so much to study so little time... i need more hours in a day...
i wonder how the seniors could actually go through 2nd year.. some say its one of the most relaxing year.. but it seems to me that is tough... DAMN!!! how am i going to go through 3rd 4th ... year ????

i really miss high school.. like crazy !!!!going to school without worrying so much.. teacher will spoon feed us everything.. "tips" for us during exams...all u need to do is finish your homework and task on time..THAT'S IT... the only stressful time is during exam... like for a week??!!

i hate the feeling of knowing nothing... stare blankly at the lecturer each time.. i hate it.. i want to study so much.. get myself prepared for class.. but I'm just to lazy for it right now.. I'm wornout i think.. so tired ... my "fuel" is running out..

i miss home =[

haizzzzzzz -----------------------

~ M!s3RieS ~

2009-10-26T04:05:00.000-07:00

Honestly speaking, im really lost now.. i dont know what to do , where to go, who to seek for help.. Im just a lost sheep straying in Moscow city.. At times i even ask myself why am i here.. Did i make a big mistake by coming here to study..??

Within two months these much of things happened, i cant imagine what is waiting for me for the next 8 months here. I just miss being a DADDY's girl, where every single thing he is there for me and MUMMY would give me the best advise ever!!

Everything seems to changed.. it was just a couple of days not contacting them..why why why?? why on me?? why my friends are keeping things away from me ??
Do i deserve this ??

~nightmares~

2009-10-23T06:43:00.000-07:00

Well like what i said before, bad things keep coming up to me..i really dont understand why >.<

So the next obstacles was, all of us ( me dee pv harsh rt ) had diarrhea at the same time.How it happen?? What when wrong?? well we were so lazy to cook , so we bought food from "massad people" cause they provide delivery service..All we need to do is sit and wait the the fork n spoon till the food comes. We bought it for lunch, but guess what time it was delivered... 2am!!!!!!!!! we were so hungry by then. Without thinking twice we ate everything that was on the plate.. i never thougt that i would be served with spoiled food..after investigation, it seems that the food was spoiled before it was even delivered. Everyone who ordered food from them had diarrhea like crazy.. almost the whole hostel !!!

Imagine five girls and with only ONE toilet..all five of us were taking turns making trips to the loo.. damn the feeling was so horrible..!!! i never had such bad diaarhea in my life before... we had diarrhea for like 2 days... but mine wasnt getting better at all... going toilet more than 10 tens is really suffering...
i never want to go trough that again in my life..

Peeps be carefully with what you put into you mouth..!!!!!!!!

So how did i managed recover?? hmmmm only the ones that contacted me will know >.<

ps: this really make maple a stronger individual.. with the amount of things that she went through she will never be the same person anymore___________

missing in action

2009-10-18T19:38:00.000-07:00

HHmmm.. ever since i arrived in Moscow i have been disconnected from friends and family in Malaysia..spending days here in Moscow without you all in msia is really difficult.. so hard to call it a day.. But i guess this it what you need to go through when u decide to study overseas.. need to scarifies babey!!!! LOLXX.
Anyways, here what maple been doing here in MOSCOW...

I guess all of ya'all know that I've been having problems getting a room in the hostel..have been running up and down to get things done.. there was a point where my friends and i thought cancelling ur contract with our agent(racuss) and find some other agent to help us..cancelling a contract is a very difficult procedure.For the sake of our education we took the challenged.We chose "s" to be our agent. we did all the procedure needed.. Travelled to their office almost everyday..Made a big fuss back in the Msian Embassy and not forgetting Russian Cultural Center cause we needed some documents from them... do u think we successfully got to join the new agent? after all the scarifieses we made .. " money time energy "

NONONONO!!!!!!!!!!

"S" was just like any other agent... money minded!!!!!!!!! all they see in you is $$$ sign..people these days are so cruel even to their own people.. after all the things we did (words cant describe what we really went through) we were back to square one. We were filled with dissapointment and frustration!!! We were still stuck with our old agent,"R".. cisss!!!!
we were hopeless, aimless and our parents were so worried back there..

When we were so devastated, here came blessings from heaven. The Rector and the Dean from my University got to know our problem.They call us up and we had a meeting(not every one has the chance to talk to the Rector btw).They personally called up the hostel commander..And the next minute, we were shifting our stuffs into our room once again!!! a fully renovated room!!!!! HUHU... miracles do happen PEOPLE if you pray hard for it cause God will never want his children to suffer..
**Thank You Rector and Dean for your help btw =]

well well..I thought my nightmare has ended after that. but, it was just the BEGINNING !!! before all the other problems came popping out into my life , i thought being room less was the worst thing that could happened to me.. but having a nearly expired visa half way around the world is even worst. My agent is the most useless agent ever.They don't do anything for us!!! all they know is three words..
"I DON'T KNOW" . This is what they will tell us each time we ask them what should we do, where should we go, how can we renew the visa.. Gosh why are they working as agents when they themselves don't know how to get things done...
( pissing me off whenever i talk about them )

But once again thank God, eventually with the help of some seniors here, i finally got my visa renewed.
( ps: got it done one day before it expires .. gosh.. damn scary ).

WAIT !!! my nightmare has not ended yet. to be continue __________...

~ im back ~

2009-10-18T17:35:00.000-07:00

Gosh..so long since i viewed my blog..actually kind of forget how it looks like till i logged in.. lolxx..Peeps I'm so sorry... i haven't been updating anything for the past two months.. haven't been coming online too and fb-ing...People who are close to me should know why right??

Anyways so many things happened within this two months.. its too much till i cant describe it in a day. whatever i experienced within this two months, its a "one in a life time thingy".. i don't know is it God's plan to make me go through this so that i could be a tougher and stronger individual ... but I'm just thankful that there were people around me that helped me and guide me..accompanying me so that i could stand on my feet once again..

THANK YOU ** (u should know who you are)

will tell u more what maple have been up to in the next blog...

18th >> hmm...suppose to be "the day" but what is left in me are memories..
xoxo

sharing time =]

2009-08-18T22:03:00.000-07:00

HMMMMM.. As we know , Malaysia is about to celebrate its birthday soon.. Sadly one of the citizen wont be able to be there to share the happiness >.<

I dont know why im saying this... but i kind of missing my country already, eventhough im still here.. Malaysia is a beautiful place.. im going to miss "you" alot, Msia.. !!

SEMANGAT PATRIOTISM !!!!!!!!

Below is a clip i would like to share.. all msian should watch.. heheh =]

5 more days

2009-08-17T02:17:00.000-07:00

Time really flies..My summer holiday is going to end soon.. Hectic schedule is going to haunt me again.. !!! sleepless nights !! huge eye bags !!! dry skin !!! AARRRRGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't want to leave Malaysia so soon... not when my baby is still sick =[
Lucky is going for a surgery tomorrow.. to adjust his patella back to the normal position.. it will take about 4 hours...the surgery is quite risky cause Lucky is an old dog.. poor fella.. why must he suffer like this..??

Hopefully everything goes well. Cant wait to see that fellow out from surgery room and walk again...!!
Too bad i wont be able to witness it..Doc said it might take three weeks for him to walk again...

Ps: Lucky Im so sorry that i wont be around to see u recover.. but mummy is going to pray for you =[

Wake up call

2009-08-15T03:07:00.001-07:00

I want to apologize to everyone that are close to me ,especially my family and BFFs... Was under depression lately.. always not in the mood of doing anything.. lock myself in the room and etc etc...But now i finally got my WAKE UP CALL..

I realized that whatever i did for the past few days did no good to myself nor to people around me.. Life isn't just about relationship.. its more than that..
For now i will set that aside and study hard.. HEHEHE =]

Better gear myself up in order to fight the battle(exams)..........

GOING BACK TO MOSCOW SOON !!!!!!!!

M .O. S.

2009-08-13T22:35:00.001-07:00

I couldn't believe i did it..!!! HAAHAHA.. guess what???
Finally i got a chance to visit a club ( M.O.S. )!!! with my cousinzzz =]

It wasn't my plan at all.. I thought that we are going for dinner at sunway pyramid only... but then,(as usual my cousins have loads of surprises for me ) while waiting for her to get dressed .. she told me that we are going clubbing after dinner.

What's my reaction....
* ME !!!! CLUBBING??? I DIDN'T SEE THAT COMING...

Nat ask me to invite some friends to come along... without thinking twice i knew who to call... a friend of mine who is familiar with the word "club"..
close friends of mine should know who i am talking about right..??

**its one and only .... BABI LIM >.<
(if u are reading this.. i am glad u are there .. so sorry for not saying goodbye the other day)

i cant deny that i was nervous and anxious,thinking whats waiting for me inside the club..getting my first "pop" (a stamp indicating your entry to the club) makes me feel like an adult... no more under aged for maple.. LOLX..

As midnight slowly creeps in, more people came.. the dance floor was packed..
Everyone was enjoying their time.. including me "the first timer "

Really need to thank my cousins for making this happen.. Knowing that im depressed the whole week, they took the initiative to cheer me up..well.... they did it !!!
(loud music dance sweat drink may help a little in depression i guess) >.<

Love ya'll so much cousinzz..!!!

** pics are with Nat.. need to wait till she upload it.. hehee..

~ Gloomy Day ~

2009-08-12T07:45:00.000-07:00

Its been raining almost the whole day...no sign of cars on the main road of Gasing Indah.. Not even a stray dog can be seen.. I guess everyone prefer to stay at home with the rain keep pouring...

Hmmm..Today was a little different form my daily routine(which was sleep eat and eat then sleep then eat).I took my dog to a vet..Its time for Lucky's yearly check ups.. As usual Lucky is being weigh then waited for his turn to see the Doc..

But this time,there was something unusual..The Doc seems to be taking a longer time with Lucky... Sitting outside waiting makes me worried and anxious.. What's with my baby?? Is he sick??

The Good news : Lucky is not over weight
The Bad news : Lucky is going to be partially blind(conjunctiva - cause of old age)
2nd Bad news : he may have nerves problems near the hip area too

Advise given by Doc : take an X-ray/ ultrasound to identify whats wrong

Why Lucky must be sick now ? When im about to leave..And i just lost my B and now this baby...???!!!! i cant afford to lose you Lucky..

**Please do pray for Lucky..Though he is old( 10 yrs old),i know he can make it..

continue or not ?

2009-08-11T01:52:00.001-07:00

wearing one of this coat was what i wanted since i was a little girl

Am i willing to let go of my stethoscope ?

Like what i posted yesterday.. another problem struck me today...

My tuition fees for 2nd year increased... double the price!!!!!!!!!! omgosh...
It is stated in the contract( with my agent) that my tuition fees will not increase throughout the whole six years there..Now its different...!! How can they do that to us..?
Cause of this increasing fees and living cost in Moscow,Russia.. tonnes of students are deciding to drop out, considering studying in Indonesia or back to Malaysia..some even consider to quit.. i mean QUIT!!!!!!!

Not studying MEDICINE ??? That's like giving up my childhood dream ... What am i suppose to do ??

somebody please help me.... i need counseling

I want to stay loyal to MR MEDICINE.. but........ aikxxx

Goliaths are everywhere..

2009-08-10T02:36:00.001-07:00

Why must we face so much obstacles, making it so difficult to achieve our desired goals? Must we feel the pain before getting what we want? why when we managed to solve a problem .. and the next moment another comes rolling in ??

How i wish to have a pet like DOREMON .. with his multi purpose pocket... everything can be made easy....

** being a homosapien ain't easy **

070809

2009-08-07T06:53:00.000-07:00

Little did i know today's date was so special until my mum told me about it..
Should have spend it wisely instead of being a sober at home..
haiz haiz..

but at least this book managed to cheer me up a little
" A Time To Laugh " by Dr Johnson T.K.Lim

This make me stop thinking about him for a minute..

** A group of girlfriends are on a vacation when they see a 5-story hotel with a sign that reads " for women only ".Since they are without their boyfriends and husbands, they decided to go in.

The bouncer , a very attractive guy explain to them how it works. "We haf five floors. Go up floor by floor and once you find what you are looking for you can stay
there. Its easy to decide since each floor has a sign telling you what's inside."

So they start going up and on the 1st floor the sign reads " All men on the floor are short and plain." The friends laughed and without hesitation move on to the next floor.

The sigh on the 2nd floor reads " All the men here are short and handsome." Still this isn't enough ,so the friends continue on up.

They reached the 3rd floor and the sign reads " All the men here are tall and plain."

Still they want to do better and so , knowing there are still two floors left, they
kept going.

On the the 4th floor the sign is perfect : " All the men here are tall and handsome." The women get excited and are about to go in when they realize there is still one floor left. Wondering what they are missing , they head up to the 5th floor.

They find a sign that reads: " There is no men here " **

ps : this prove that there is no way to please a woman. Are you one of them??

Lost sheep

2009-08-06T06:44:00.000-07:00

When you came across an argument , how will you face it?

a) stand up for yourself by giving 101 excuses
b) just start using foul words against him/her
c) walk away and start cursing that person
d) keep silence throughout the argument cause its " bullshit "
e) suicide -.-
f ) none of the above ( whats your?? )

This question has been playing in my mind for a couple of days...
im really a lost sheep right now..

L.O.V.3 hurts

2009-07-31T07:35:00.000-07:00

It hurts to love and
not be loved in return
but what is the most painful is to love
and never find the courage
to let the person know
how you feel.

God wants
us to meet a few wrong people
before meeting the right one
so that when we finally
meet the right person,
we should know
how to be grateful
for that gift.

Love is
when you take away
the feeling, the passion, the romance
and you find out
you still care for that person.

A sad thing about life
is that when you meet someone
who means a lot to you
only to find out
in the end
that it was
never meant to be
and you just have to
let go.

When one door
of happiness closes
another opens
but often we look
so long
at the closed door
that we don't see
the one which has been
opened for us.

The best kind of friend
is the one
you could sit on a porch with,
never say a word
and then
walk away feeling
it was the best conversation
you ever had.

It's true that
we don't know what we've got
until we lose it
but it's also true,
we don't know
what we've been missing
until it arrives.

Giving someone
all your love
is never an assurance
they will love you back.

Don't expect love
in return,
just wait for it to grow,
in their hearts.
If it doesn't,
be content, it grew in yours.

There are things
you love to hear
and only feel inside your heart
but don't be deaf
to know
it's probably time to restart.

Never say
you are not in love
when you can't find a way
to say good-bye.

Love comes
to those who still hope
even though they've been disappointed,
And to those who still believe
even though they've been betrayed,
will find that after all that pain
you will one day reign.

It takes
a minute to like someone
and hours to maybe have a crush,
days, weeks and months to love them
but to forget
that special someone?
....Well that could take
a lifetime.

Don't go for looks
as it can deceive
don't go for wealth
even that fades away,
go for someone who makes you smile.
They will make
a dark day seem bright
and a bright day.. seem so right.

There are moments in life
when you really miss someone,
you see them in your dreams
want to hold and hug them,
This dream can feel
so distant,
let them know,
the feeling
in your heart

Dream
what you want to dream
go where you want to go
be what you want to be.
You have only
one life and one chance
to do it all .

Happy bithday mum and dad !!!!!!

2009-07-30T02:42:00.000-07:00

well well.. after all those sad stuffs I've been through for the past few days .. Finally happy moments fills back my soul... its my parents birthday!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR DAD AND MUM!!!!!!

This is what my sis and I planned for both them...

Daddy _____ western cuisine
Mummy ______ seafood

We had a great night out.. So long since we chatted like that as one big family.. =]
i realized dad and mum are more open minded compared to last time.. I guess they realized that their girls are all grown up... each one of them have their one personalities and thoughts... its time to let go dear parents.. lolxx..

mummy daddy "ya loobloo Tee "

what is L.. O.. V.. E ???

2009-07-27T09:09:00.000-07:00

Have you ever ask yourself what is love ? ?

Oxford dictionary : is defined as an intense feeling of deep affection
Wikipedia : no. of feelings and experiences related to a sense of strong affection and attachment
blablabla..

In reality LOVE hurts..!!!!!!
Really don't seems to understand why love can be so wonderful and awful at the same time.
Is love just a feeling and affection or is it more than that..?? Does love make us change into a person we no longer know?? Must sacrifices be made by both parties to maintain the relationship?? Why love isn't what we see on TV or heard in fairy tales..?? Isn't that much more easier... There are so many question and doubts about love and yet billions of people fall in love..
why? why ? why?
Perhaps love is a battlefield... Perhaps we must fight for it .. ____________

Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute it's love
And suddenly it's like a battlefield

One word turns into war
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down?
My world's nothing when u don't
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now

Both hands, tied behind my back with nothing
These times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now

I never meant to start a war
You know i never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we are fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield?

~ jordin sparks~

Newbi3

2009-07-26T22:05:00.000-07:00

HMmmm.. i never know why i started blogging thou...influence by friends? upgrading myself? trying new things? whatever is it , i know boredness is one of the factor..

Anyways, i want to thank my darlings ,Seewai for making this happen... and also not forgetting Wendy... i love my darlings so much !!! thank you =] i know i can always count on both of you all.

Gosh, summer holiday is goin to end soon... darlings we need to spend more time together .. plan something..!!!!!!!

Hello from me!

2009-07-24T03:46:00.000-07:00

Hello people :) No, I did not changed my blog url.

Seewai is in the house! Can't believe that I'll be the first person to blog in titleofmyown instead of the owner herself.

She's currently in Malacca and me at home working my ass off for this layout. This is no easy work but Im very happy with the output.

*Cross fingers* Hopes that she'll like this as well.

Do comment if you like this too. Link her okay if you know her.

I have to get back to my own blog now. Bye!